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[19 Jul 2005|02:45am] |
Dont hate me.
I changed journals agian.
Add me.
xxx_melissa_xxx
add me, my friends. add me.
I will update my friends list later.
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[14 Jul 2005|01:15pm] |
Alright, so David is the sweetest guy ever. Just so you all know.
Mandi-Dont worry about stupid stuff...like what someone heard that someone said shit. Just take things as they are...if they turn into shit, then at least you had a really-fucking-happy day..week...month...whatever. Even, though I am a really horrible friend-type person...and we dont know each other too well.....I am here for you. *mwah*
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[10 Jul 2005|12:54am] |
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Well, tis the night before Dennis.
Storms scare me. I tried to get David to come over to my parent's house with me...but, I definatly dont blame him for not wanting to. I dont even want to be here. But, my mother, like me, worries horribly. So David has my cell phone and is staying with Travis.
I love my parents. They are definatly the best parents anyone could as for, but I cant take living here. People wondered why I was so bitchy and moody in high school. It was this place. There are so many people around all the time and it is so noisy and chaotic. It drives me insane. This past week I have been the biggest bitch. Poor, David. I have bitched him out for every little thing. Like really stupid shit. But he understands and has been absolutly wonderful about it. Better than I could have ever hoped. He just hugs me and kisses me and tells me that it is ok..that he loves me...and to stop bitching at him...
He is so wonderful and so beautiful. Even when I am miserable and depressed...one smile from him just lights up my world.
Ooooh I am getting sappy.
Gah, this place. I just feel myself going insane. Bad insane not good insane. I just want to fucking slit my wrists, or shoot myself. I hate this feeling. This hopelessness. The depression.
Just a couple more weeks.
So work is going great. At Burkes anyways. I love working there.
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| Brittny and Tristian!!!! See I did it! |
[10 Jul 2005|12:08am] |
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-my name: Brittny
-where did we meet? at our apt...when it was just mine
-take a stab at my middle name: uhhhh....shit....i have such a horrible memory....uhhh......Nicole?....no...i know....ick....
-how long have you known me? hmmmm....getting close to a yeah I supose..from the time we met...and 7 months that we have actually really known each other
-do I smoke? like the crack-head does crack! when you can get a cigarette, that is
-do I believe in God? in your own way...though, I believe that you have some doubts about the Christian God...
-what was your first impression of me upon meeting? Very beautiful...awesome that you managed to pull off the nose ring look....and very open with your sexuallity (Stacee)
-when is my birthday? I do not know...i mean i know...but i cant for the life of me remember...once again i have a horrible memory...but i do know that you are a Capricorn....
-what color hair do I have? last time i saw you it was brown with beautiful blonde streaks...
-what color are my eyes: brownish hazelish color
-do I have any siblings? Yes..A little half-sister named Cheyanne that I have met...ummm...a teenager step/half? brother named Jaye...a little half-brother named..uhhh....i cant remember....and a step/half sister that has babies....
-have you ever had a crush on me? not in the romantic sence...but as for the "i wanna hang out with you all the time and i think about you all the time" kind of thing i have...
-what's one of my favorite things to do? dress up all hoochie..spend hours at it...be fashionably late to everything....hang out with people that you love....smoke too many cigarettes....and eat lean cusines with english peas on trays in my living room watching That 70s Show and American Idol and Americas Next Top Model....tee-heee...gah, I miss that....
-do you remember one of the first things i said to you? "Uhh...Im Brittny....JOANNA!!!You said she knew I was coming over!!! Is it okay..that...Im staying?...and..ummm...that Stacee is comeing over?"
-what's my favorite type of music? Jewel..."Cruisin" by Gwenith and that guy...Spice Girls...Dido....hehehe...soft girl music I supose....
-what is the best feature about me? your hair...face...and your confidence...and definatly your fashion sence....i love you...*pout* *missing you*
-am i shy or outgoing? Outgoing...but definatly reserved
-would you say I am funny? hilarious....definatly hilarious...as long as people keep in mind that you are super-intelligent underneath the air-headedness....like me!!!
-am I a rebel or do follow all the rules? definatly a rebel....what was it that that dude called you at Olive Garden...you know, when you wouldnt wear your uniform correctly...ummm...designer hostess, i believe....heh...
-any special talents? writing..art...interior decorating...singing...and the list could continue for miles...
-would you consider me a friend? oh my god, yes....like a sister...that i get along with....
-have you ever seen me cry? ummm...i think so....i dont remember seeing you cry, though....i know i have heard the sadness in your voice so many times...and i have heard you cry on the phone....
-if there was one good nickname for me, what would it be? stupid-head!!!
-describe me in one word: uhhhh....Creative?....
-what's your favorite memory of me? ummm....spending seven hours just talking and smoking cigarettes and making plans...Guava Juice!!!!...talking about relationships....going to the beach and having your non-driving ass get my car unstuck because I was too scared to....cleaning the bathrooms at the Olive Garden together so we could talk....waking up at 6:50AM to take your ass to Standard furniture then cooking you lunch and fighting the traffic at Standard so you could eat it(NOT!!!)heh....re-decorating our living room..that poor sad chair....You, Kelli and I sneaking upstairs to hide out from our guest that wouldnt leave....waffle house....that damn ghost...all of it....having Mike come to get rid of it, even though he actually pissed it off...sleeping in your bed because we were so terrified....our before bed cigarette tradition (I still smoke a cigarette in bed before i turn the light off....i miss you...heh, and David gets mad at me about it...heh...) having to have a guy stay over so the ghost would behave....when Brandon Drago stayed over and woke up acting like our ghost....going to the club...and getting doughnuts afterwards.."umm...i want...that one!...ooohh and one of those!....ummmm...and like...uhhh.......that one!..." heh, that mean old lady that probably thought we were stoned.....going to the coffee loft....having dinner at 3AM..........but especially our talks....I miss you...doing this is making me so sad....
-what single trait about me annoys you the most? uhhh.....like you said...if we had filled this out a few months ago we could have filled pages...heh....but i guess since we havent seen each other in months and are missing each other like a fat kid misses cake.....in each others eyes we are perfect..heh...
-if you and I were stranded on a desert island what one thing would you want to take with us? hmmmmm.....damn that is a hard one....it is between cigarettes and make-up...who knows how hot the rescue team is going to be? heh...but definatly cigarettes...heh
-do you think i could kick your ass? eh...why would you want to?
-would you ever marry me? definatly depends.....
and for Tristian...
-my name: Tristian
-where did we meet? uhhh...maybe at Brandon's pool party....but....the first time I remember you was at David's house....
-take a stab at my middle name: uhhh...oh my god...my memory sucks ass so bad.....Marie?....ehh...
-how long have you known me? somewhere around three years....
-do I smoke? nope....you hate cigarettes...
-do I believe in God? not that i know of....
-what was your first impression of me upon meeting? very cool and pretty all goth/punked out with your sexy boyfriend...seemed like you would be one of those "im too cool to hang out with a non-goth/punk person"
-when is my birthday? uhhhh....i know this....i am so scatter-brained....agh!
-what color hair do I have? last time I saw you light brown on top and black underneath....
-what color are my eyes: brown...
-do I have any siblings? Deidra, Jennifer and Erica
-have you ever had a crush on me? oh definatly...
-what's one of my favorite things to do? art..computer graphics...be with your friends...be away from your house...
-do you remember one of the first things i said to you? "Hey Im Tristian and this is JP...who are you?" or something close to that....
-what's my favorite type of music? Mudvayne...slipknot...really loud hard music
-what is the best feature about me? your smile...your humor...and your confidence
-am i shy or outgoing? definatly outgoing...
-would you say I am funny? fucking hilarious...
-am I a rebel or do follow all the rules? definatly a rebel...i doubt you have ever followed any rules...except the ones that could get you arrested or suspended/expelled....
-any special talents? Batman Bandit!!!! and definatly your artwork...
-would you consider me a friend? of course...silly question
-have you ever seen me cry? probably....but then again i dont really think so...
-if there was one good nickname for me, what would it be? Space-Monkey-from-planet-really-sexy-chick!!!! hehehe
-describe me in one word: it is definatly a word if it has no spaces..... superfuckingbeautifulwannafuckallthetimehilariouslycreativesexychick
-what's your favorite memory of me? wal-mart and target being the Batman Bandits...celebrating the start of my birthday in the wal-mart parking lot with matt..wearing strawberry shortcake party hats and glasses...running over the median...all that time we spent with Justin...my first peircing...the beach...getting fucking shitfaced....
-what single trait about me annoys you the most? uhhhh....none.....
-if you and I were stranded on a desert island what one thing would you want to take with us? definatly a radio...
-do you think i could kick your ass? id let you *wink wink*
-would you ever marry me? Duh! In Vegas..and then we are going to marry Justin! Tee-hee
Gah...I love you two...Tristian and Brittny....I miss you both....ack....
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[08 Jul 2005|03:49am] |
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David is the most infuriating man I have ever known. He is the only person that can get me this pissed over nothing.
Arg.
I just want to beat him.
And this is all over nothing.
But I love him. He loves me. It will all be ok. I am just really pissed right now.
And it is his fault this time.
So there.
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| Thank you Brittny! |
[08 Jul 2005|03:37am] |
Yeah, so Brittny loves me and did this about me. Now, you do me and I will do you back! Yeah...everyone do it!
And maybe this didnt make anyone else laugh...but to me this made me laugh so very hard.
I love you, Brittny.
Oh yeah, Brittny...I did you. It is in the reply.
-my name: Jessica
-where did we meet? Your Apt. (Well, when it was just yours.. ;) )
-take a stab at my middle name: Lane (Pronounced Luh-nay) Ok! So I forgot how to spell it!
-how long have you known me? Almost a year....
-do I smoke? The question is.... When do you not smoke? :)
-do I believe in God? You have faith in something spiritual.... A higher being.
-what was your first impression of me upon meeting? I liked you I thought you were cool and were definately someone I could get along with.
-when is my birthday? *I deleted her answer* *she got it right*
-what color hair do I have? Depends....either Blond or red.
-what color are my eyes: Greenish. Greyish.
-do I have any siblings? Yes.
-have you ever had a crush on me? It was more of a love thing....
-what's one of my favorite things to do? Smoke, talk, dress up, sing, have sex, take pictures, fun stuff!
-do you remember one of the first things i said to you? "Hi! Who is this?!"
-what's my favorite type of music? Liz Phair.
-what is the best feature about me? Eyes.
-am i shy or outgoing? Outgoing....But it definately depends on the mood. Sometimes yes, and sometimes no.
-would you say I am funny? ....We have our own kind of humor.
-am I a rebel or do follow all the rules? Rebel. Accept when It comes to work.
-any special talents? Writing, art....Singing....LoL!
-would you consider me a friend? Only the bestest!
-have you ever seen me cry? Yes.
-if there was one good nickname for me, what would it be? Butt-Face! J/k!
-describe me in one word: Can't do it.
-what's your favorite memory of me? There are soooo many! Going to gulf shores, remember we got the car stuck at the exit and i had to drive it out! and the ghost night, guava juice, smoking a shit load of cigaretts, club, laco bell, shopping- even if it was wal-mart.... waffle house, the night we stayed up fo 8 hours straight talking about 2 idiots, the night the door tried to kick you back, we kept that "freaked out" cigarette for like 2 months-- then someone threw it out....I cant remember who.... Happy bunni stickers, the morning I wrecked the car, the long drives blairing all kinds of retarted songs.... :/ I miss u!!!! Oh, and the night you me and david tried to order a pizza at like 12 am.... Ok I could go on forever.
-what single trait about me annoys you the most? You know Im sure I could have told you like a thousand 4 months ago. But now I cant rememebr. ;)
-if you and I were stranded on a desert island what one thing would you want to take with us? 90 zillion cartons of cigaretts....That should last about 2 days....
-do you think i could kick your ass? You would definately put up a good fight!
-would you ever marry me? Depends
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[07 Jul 2005|02:03am] |
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had a crush on Trent for a while, but he never
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Well, everyone send some excitement my way. I talked to my beloved Brenda today. Only for about 5 minutes, though. That made me sad, but just hearing her voice gave me so much happiness. I miss her. Georgia. Grrr. However, she said that she is going to be in Bay Minette in about a month or so. Yay! *excited* I cant wait to see her. I just cant wait. It has been well over sex months since I have seen her. I saw her a day or two after Ivan hit. Arg.
I love love love one of my jobs. Burke's Outlet is awesome. I have so much fun and it is so easy. I never ever dread going to work (well, unless I am in bed...then I never want to get up) I am still at Churchs. It sucks. I hate it. I think about driving my car into a telephone pole or shooting myself in the face on days that I have to work there. Seriously. It sucks that bad.
Shana, you might want to check out Burke's. We have a lot of Betty Boop stuff. Like really cool purses and pillows and neat stuff like that. Just thought you might like to know. Heh.
I havent seen my Brittny in a few months. And that makes me sad. I supose it is ok since she is only like half an hour away. But still. Her daddy is a meanie. So there.
And I come to David. Lately him and I have been horrible to each other. Just mean and crabby. But we always apologize and hug and kiss so that makes it all better. We are both really stressed. I am sleeping at my parents house while he is sleeping on Justin's couch. Which means that we are not sleeping together. It has only been two nights and I am already feining. I have found my soulmate and I am sleeping alone. Something is wrong with that picture. Other than being stressed we are perfect. He is simply amazing. I see him and just feel....happy. Complete.
And you know what else?
He feels the same way.
I missed Brandon's birthday party. I did, however, call him at the ungodly hour of 9AM to wish him a happy birthday. Fear not, my dear Brandon, I am getting you a gift. I even know what it is. I just havent gotten it. It is highly inapropriate but I thought of you as soon as I saw it. I just dont have any money to spare. If nothing else I will just describe it in great detail.
I want a cigarette really bad right now. I made a promise to myself not to smoke at my parents house or around David. So far I have failed rather miserably at not smoking around David and I am soon to fail at the other. I want to give up the damn cigarettes but every time I get close I get stressed and back slide.
So I shall step outside and smoke a bit of a cigarette, read a bit of my novel and sleep. Au Revior.
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[24 Jun 2005|07:54pm] |
This is going to be boring.
I work. I eat occasionally. I see David. That is it. Yawn, I know.
And...I am happy. Usually.
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| Brittny! For you! |
[15 Jun 2005|03:17pm] |
Especially the shower one! Tee-hee! I love you chica!
You know you are addicted to smoking when:
You put scotch tape on a broken one.
You only smoke half of the cigarette so you can start on the next one sooner.
A big white truck with the picture of a camel rolls up to your house twice a week with your supply of smokes.
You are considering changing your name to Malboro.
You smoke in the shower.
You've convinced yourself that second-hand smoke is not harmful if you inhale really really deeply.
Your children are named: Winston, Philip Morris and Misty.
R.J. Reynolds sends you a Christmas card.
You're waiting for the last few pews to become a designated smoking area before you'll go back to church.
People invite you outside to admire the stars, and it's daytime.
Every time you light up a cigarette your family stops, drops and rolls.
Your family's Christmas wish list consists of gas masks, fire extinguishers and air fresheners.
You have an environmental awareness group protesting on your lawn.
Your family goes to Los Angeles for fresh air.
Your friends have named their secondhand smoke related coughs after me.
Your cat has taken to wearing "The Patch"
Your family uses fog horns to navigate around you.
Just watching the 400 metre race during the Olympics makes you tired.
The local iron lung dealer sends you their product brochures.
Phillip Morris sends you their annual report and thanks you for your help.
You recently read somewhere that your former cigarette manufacturer went out of business shortly after you switched to a new brand.
Your doctor [excitedly] asks for your permission to use your lung x-rays at his next "Quit Smoking" seminar.
You take baths because the shower puts 'em out
Your nickname at work is "Breakroom."
You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Smoking.
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[15 Jun 2005|02:41pm] |
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and then the peanuts show.....
Lately...has been stupid. Just so you know.
That is all.
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[08 Jun 2005|03:28pm] |
OK, so I am really really happy.
Last night was wonderful..just how the rest of my life is going to be.
I talked to my Brittny yesterday.
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I got some rather disturbing news...that made me cry....really hard. And I am still feeling....angry...hurt...scared...selfish...stupid.........alone.....
but...everything happens for a reason....and if this is meant to be it shall.
I hope it isnt, though.
I talked to Brenda today! I was so excited and I am so happy. Happy happy. She wants me to come visit her for a week in Georgia. And she said that if the news happens...then she wants me to come live with her until everything gets settled.
I talked about it with David.....sounds like a good idea.
And no, David and I are not breaking up. Nothing even remotly like it.
So yeah...we have a good bit of money stashed away for our home....not nearly enough...but still a good bit.
Everything....is just wonderful...and I am so happy....
even though David and I have fought a good bit lately......I know that they are just fights...and everything is going to work out...
we are going to be this happy forever.
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Whoa....no one has posted since school let out. Hmmm. Could it be? Is livejournal dyeing? Heh.
Well, I certainly had fun last night. Definatly interesting.
Oooh I am sleepy. I am going to eat dinner and go home and crash...until David gets home...hmmm...maybe he will crash with me.
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[26 May 2005|09:34pm] |
I feel like shit..and yes I look like shit, too.
Ugh.
I cannot wait until David gets off of work. I miss him. I need to be held.
I am getting a new cell phone tomorrow. Most likely.
I hate being sick.
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[25 May 2005|06:29pm] |
Oh goodness. I just read journals. Hmmm. *disgust* Sometimes....I just wonder. Well, everyone seems to be happy, thus I shall say nothing. But....people do stupid stuff.
I am watching Legally Blonde 2! I love this movie. Heh. It is great. Everyone watch it.
Now.
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[24 May 2005|08:53pm] |
Yeah, so I havent updated in a bit. Oh well. I have been with David so....heh....itll be ok.
We finished off the camera that we bought a good bit ago...Im excited. Maybe I will put the pictures on a CD so I can show you all..or something....
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[21 May 2005|03:15pm] |
Well, last night David and I went with Kayla to pick up Chris at the airport. Arg. His plane didnt get in until after midnight. Can we say boring?
But then when we got home...something...just...oh my god. Awesome. Great. I love David so much. Tee-hee.
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[18 May 2005|08:44pm] |
Yeah, ok...so David and I..and Travis and who knows who else were suposed to be going to Star Wars tonight at midnight. But all the theaters are sold out. Grrr.
So no see movies.
David is so great. Tee-hee.
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